Today morning went to school.
Super sleepy.
Feel like going home and continue sleeping.
And most of the teachers never come.
Hence, class was chaotic.
And the biggest things i couldn't stand.
Is mess, noise and chaos!
I was sooooo deprived to leave the class room today.
I took the BMCC scroll down.
Cause i dun think 1E1 deserve it.
And i was veri angry.
SO i teared out pieces of paper and tear into small pieces.
And threw them on the ground.
Hmmm... like snow falling?
Then people wanted to pick up.
But i said leave it.
Then after recess,
The BMCC teacher came in and see the mess and shook her head.
WOHOO?!
We wouldn't get BMCC le.
I am proud of that!
After that saw my other class besties.
And my mood cheered up a little.
And chinese dance.
MY mood was back.
jus x3 dancing.
Dun stop the music!!!
And the dance rocks.
And chinese dance members rocks too.
Jia Xin's b'day is approaching!
MUAHAHAHA!
Then when we dance the last pose,
Cause stage veri small.
Then me and elaine and charmaine no space.
Then me and elaine always hit each other when we turn.
ok then accident came le.
She scratched my hand...
Like how a cat did...
I didn't realise u know...
I was jus wondering why my hand so pain.
Also nv go see..
Then suddenly see... already got blood le-.-
But little bit nia.
XD. then went home with elaine.

OK. i small note i wrote in class today when i was superb depressed.
FYI, i wrote on my fullscap.

29th May 09, Friday.
OmGOSH!
I think im starting to have mild depression.
I feel like choking myself when im eating.
My whole head is full of people hating me.
And they seemed to critisize me non stop.
0I cannot accept their negative insults.
i got a very unable to describe feeling.
I feel like throwing everything away,
Chopping off my hands.
I am not trying to be emo here...
I just feel terrible. -SIGHS-
My purpose of saying all this here.
IS that i hope that someone can step in my world.
And show some care and concern for me.
And i dun need your crocodile tears.
I felt... unloved...
I hate my life.
I dunno what makes me say that.
But its just. my heart tells my brain.
' i hate my life .'
Coming this far, i never once felt truly happy before.
I jus can't seem to put that piece of trust on u.
I haven meet someone whom i can really trust.
But im hurt enough.
my heart cannot be broken again...
People don't understand me...
And no one tries to understand me.
No one. no one in this world.
I feel super negative and weird...
And no mood to do anything now.
GREAT.
We arre finally not getting BMCC award.
Thanks to the litters i produced.
I Am SOOO 'HAPPY?'
I dun know.
I dun understand myself.
Am i really happy?
But, the BMCC doesn't belong to us in the first place.
We are not fit to take the award.
So. well.
SAY goodbye.


做人要学会拿的起，放得下，生活才不会那么难过。