Why of all days, today.

I can't believe it. Yes, i broke down today.
I didn't know how to react, and how did you want me to react? I've decided to escape, its a easier path. Poured everything out to J. I'm sorry. I didn't expect that he'll tell you. I told J that '哭過就好了'. Feeling much better after crying it all out. I don't like the me now, i break down so easily. It was the hardest thing for me to emo last time, what happened to me. Please don't blame yourself. You didn't do anything wrong. It's my fault. I was too stressed up that i'm unable to 'ti liang' your feelings. It's not your fault.

Somehow, typing those 3 words now makes me feel like crying all over again. I'm gonna take a bucket of water and pour myself awake later.

Tomorrow' history. YES, tmr's history. I can't be like this. I need to stay strong! 7 more days, 7 more days all this horrors are coming to an end. Hopefully after all this, everything will be better.
Going to wash my face now.

Jiayous people.