No time left.

What bothers me most is nt how
J misunderstand me, but u actually just betrayed me like that. I do not wish to use the word promise though u did promise not to say. Do you ever understand how disappointing it is. Not anger but heartaches . I feel so dumb for believing and trusting u time and again you know. First time, broken. Second time, broken. Third time, or
Many many times, how I always tell myself to trust u, but u still gave
Me every reason to hate you. Do u know the mre times it's broken the more fragile it is, yet you don't handle with care at all. Do u know how much courage it took for me
To find courage to trust u time and again. Breaking promises all this shit, I don't Even want to bring out or mention this word promise. WhAy does it mean to u? Nothing. Kevink said that I think too much, he said he used to be like me and think so much, but just ended up getting myself into redundant worries. But I ask myself, is it me at fault for thinking so much? No. You cant say it's my fault for thinking so much, neither can u ask me not to think so much cause that's what makes
Me so me. I'm an emotion person. You ask me to nt trust u, don't tAlk to u ever again. Seriously, how can I bring myself to do it? You want me to be happier. I can tell you it's IMPOSSIBLE for me to be happier by ignoring u.
I always talk about my feelings, cause thAts me .
Don't ask me why, I do feel like an idiot sometimes for loving you. I ask myself who are u and what are u to deserve all these of me . Unexplainable, isn't it love? Just love the way you are.

I always wonder, why always of all others but not you.