you ain't worth it,
Woke up late.
Bused to school, couldn't make it in time.
In the end, was honoured enough to get the bus to pick me up at punggol park there! xD
Went SiMei ITE for Touch Programme as usual.
Did balloons craft today, i did a heart shape attached to a flower and a stalk to hold on, ILOVEIT x)
Gathered, clean up, then left.
Everyone burst their balloons, i was the only one that bought it back.
Bused back to school.
Walked to point, KFC with jiasiang & anthony.
After that me and jiasiang mrt-ed to bugis, while anthony went to find his friend.
Reached bugis street, couldn't find darren.
Called him, found him, started shopping for dillon's present.
Intending to buy a bagpack for him.
Darren was the model of the day xD
In the end, bought a bagpack for him, $45.
Shared among me, jiasiang, darren and joshen.
(Posting the price here cause i guess he won't read my blog de :P)
MRT-e back to hougang, sat bus 112 to dillon's house.
Reached, they practicing guitar, i using computer.
Suddenly they all started playing wolfteam, while i was sitting there playing the 5 strings of the guitar over and over again :x
Dillon's mother ordered pizza for us, nice!
Halfway went out living room to eat, i ate the most other than dillon i think :P
After that went back, they continue playing wolfteam.
I was like saying, why the wolf soo skinny, then shhh, you're telling him its ghost wolf! xD
One round i vs JiaSiang, play until i heart attack =x
After that jiasiang had to go home, sent him down.
Went back up, dillon and darren taught me how to play guitar.
The first song i learned was the Titanic song, My Heart will Go On.
Its all on one strings, managed it quite well.
Practiced while they dillon and darren gang and bully people on wolfteam :P
After that darren's parents came to fetch him, he left.
Dillon taught me Fly Me to the Moon, wheeeeeee.
Couldn't stop practicing, completed half of the song.
After that around 9, went home :)
Saw his sister at the bus stop sending her boyfriend home, i smiled to her :)
Reached home, mother scolded me until very jialat, until i can cry.
Her words really hurt alot.
She said :
"I always like that, make her worry everyday. Call me also never answer my phone. Make her worry everyday don't know what time i will come home. Then she say she very tired le, don't care about me anymroe. I want what time go out, go where, what time come back, go geylang also none of her business. Say what for worrying for me, its not worth it. Then say holidays i go out she not giving me a single cent, want eat, eat at home then go out. If not she won't give me money, i go steal or rob or starve she also don't care. If i got ability, then go work, no money go geylang be prostitute. We 3 all go find our own happiness, i enjoy my life with my friends. She feels that i think they're more important than my family, she enjoy her own life, and my dad enjoy his own life, all 3 go seperate route. Then don't want care about me anymore."
Whats in my mind :
I was very sad and hurt when i hear this words. I want to write a letter to her to say sorry, but i'm too tired already. Maybe i should just let this be this way, each of us have our own life and maybe home will be just a place i sleep everyday .... Always hear her and daddy quarrelling, i'm numb to it already. She always complain to me about daddy, daddy always complain about her to me. What can i do? I'll just see this family part, slowly.
Thanks sweetheart for lending me a ear yesterday,
& sorry Joshen for showing you that attitude, cause i was in a mad mood yesterday.
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