Wasn't a Good Day.

26th June 2010, Saturday.



Went for touch NDP training @ padang.
Was being chosen as an leader to stand in the centre of the line to guide them.
And i received this very cool radio player, tune in to 1020 :)
Was hearing commands, 5,4,3,2,1, in, out from daniel all day long :D
during the singing of national anthem at finale, stared hard and looked out for liu lao shi, but only had dissapointment.
Bused back school.
To your, your may think its funny, but to me its totally not. Almost cried today, but manage to hold back my tears. When we reached back school, was really tired and didn't feel like takling at all, didn't feel like being in this world for a second.
Thanks alvin for waiting with me for my bus.
Home.

The moment i reached home, scoldings from my mother for coming back so late again. Lazy to even explain, lazy to open my mouth.
During bed time, mummy kept telling me that she hears daddy scolding her when daddy's in his room with the doors closed and i don't hear anything.
She kept shouting that daddy is scolding her very loudly and she can't sleep.
I was very scared, i slept to the end of my bed and hugged my pikachu very tightly.
Suddenly hear her crying, i've never hear her cry until like that before.
She said thats her spot where her mother sat everytime she comes to visit, and she'll say the view from there very nice.
She kept calling mummy, she said her mother took great care of her.
She asked where is she, she say her medicine already saved quite alot, just need abit more and she'll go and join her.
and she was crying, the words were unclear.
I was very scared, i closed my eyes and cried, not daring to cry out, i cried silently.
Then suddenly she walked out of the room, walked pass me, i kept my eyes shut tight.
I was very worried, i fear that the next morning i wake up, i would be a motherless child.
I kept thinking and thinking, i don't know why, it kept on leading me from one sad stuffs to another, another, another, those bad memories, i suddenly feel that life is a suffering.
She always tells me about commiting sucide and stuffs.
The world's really dark, for a second i feel like joining her to the other world together.
She told me shes scared of ghost, theres a very evil ghost in our house.
Daddy will harm us, stay away from daddy.