(Conversation of me and haikal, he really cheered me up! ^^ Thanks lizard!)

It's said that a #cancer remembers things you've done to them for life; be it good or bad.

I didn't really agree to this last time, but today something struck me which made me find it rather true. All along, most of the time I'm the one initiating the texts, I'm the one that always die also will try and find something to talk, not letting the conversation die. Im the one who gets ignored, or feel irritated with according to your
Mood. I'm no one , just someone whos trying everything to get back your heart. Yes I know
You tried too, did you try ur best? I know I am nobody to you and you are somebody to me, hence maybe the difference. But, it somehow occurred to me this .

In general (not specifically you):
People often say they've tried their best already, but in actual fact, I see nothing of the best that they can give. It's just an excuse, a self consolation that you knw, I failed but things ain't that bad. But I really can't stand this type of attitude. I remember the SYF, all the dancers were complaining and complaining on the bus back. I was totally shocked you know. Cause everyone flaunted their mistakes loudly, like 'I drop my fan ! I forgot this action! I didn't turn properly.' after continuing with 'Aiya, nevermind lah, I tried my best already.'
You call this your best? Did we have any of this problems during practice? I'm sure our best, as a team isn't during the SYF itself, it was during our practices. Yes, maybe you guys felt nervous and did stupid mistakes, but you just forgive yourself by merely saying, I did my best, loudly. In 09's SYF, someone dropped the flower, no one even dare to admit. And here I'm hearing you all say, I drop my fan! And a few others follow on, I also! Me too! Like seriously , what is this? Maybe it's different perspective of view, but yea, this is just my perspective.

So back to the point . Today, I was totally pissed off but somehow I find no point in getting pissed cause it's not ur fault. I expected too much from someone who I am nobody to. You called me mean, but my immediate thoughts were: ''if this is mean, what's the time when u broke up with me called?'' I'm sure that's 10 thousand times worst. I know you've said things like you've never wanted to hurt me or whatever so. Yea, this is so contradicting tat it's gonna give me a headache so I'm just gna pen down my random thoughts. Not blaming or scolding anyone in the process, since this is my emotions dumping ground!


And It occured to me , that a #cancer is indeed someone who remembers what you've done to him/her for the whole Life.


@/. True indeed.


Gonna choreo to 'sorry that I loved you' now to express my cool myself
Down. Kudos.