Piano: Waiting for you.
Grr, my fingers ar very stiff ahhh. Cause stress playing under the camera, will do a better one next time! :D
-Pardon me for the poor grammer and little range of vocab, i did my best :)
But as i typed this compo out, my heart is aching, like shit.
“To my Dearest, even though the memories have faded, you’re never off my mind.”
He was my perfect lover, someone whom I felt I could rely on. Its fate that we met, and became from strangers to friends. Coincidently, you happened to be my soul mate and we moved on to lovers. Four months of bitter sweet memories, quarrels and laughters, are worth recalling. Having your love was everything that I needed, I was deeply in love with your imperfections and to me; you’re one in a million.
Everything just changed and ended. Holding on tightly to the gifts from you, I cried my heart out bitterly. A fairytale just ended without a happily ever after. I recalled the day when you went overseas; I called you at the night. I just finished my dance performance, the concert which you failed to attend. Walking away from my friends, I walked to a quiet corner and made a phone call to you. I’m so glad you picked up the call, I really am. Your flight was about to departure, I quickly bided goodbye. Promises were made, still I knew I’ll be worried sick about you when you’re gone. I knew how badly I would miss you.
“Remember to take good care of yourself, darling I love you.” These words drifted through the phone.
Counting down, missing you more as each day passes. It was a long a dreadful week for me, without someone to text, someone to complain to and someone to share my happiness. Silently, I prayed every night that you would remember your promises, and are doing fine.
One morning, my phone rang. I knew today you would be back; hence, everywhere I went I made sure my phone was never out of sight. You were back, but everything seemed to have changed. You took so long to reply my messages, and all I could do all day was to wait for my phone to light up but it never really did. After which I found out that you were sick, and immediately sent you another text and asked you to rest well. You never really replied all of my text messages, I wondered what happened. Were you that sickly to at least reply a message to ease my worry? I checked my phone through and fro, but to no avail. All these were greeted by a sudden message of break-up from you. That message really sent me to crying out a sea.
As you said it was the only solution, I had to agree to it unwillingly. I tried my best to place myself in your shoes and kept telling myself to not blame you. But deep inside my heart, it is hurting and I’m crying bitterly, refusing to let go.a
Months passed, what angered me most was to find out the truth. I really wondered what did I meant to you this few months? How much of those words you say can I really trust? Have you ever loved me truly? If you do, why did you break all those promises made, and sent my heart shattering into pieces? You left me hanging, drifting and floating on the empty blue sea. Its too far from shore, I could either slowly float back or wait for you to safe me from here. You made me love you, and you said goodbye and fled the scene. All the memories so close to me just faded away, all these time you were pretending, so much for my happy ending.
It was been months passed since we broke up, but every 15th; the date where we linked our hearts, all the memories just rushes back. All those happy memories, I’m wondering if you still remember any of them. I will never forget them, till the day where you bid an official goodbye, it is time for me to let go.
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