SAD.

Rihana ; Only Girl in the World completed.

Oh hey, i'm here to rant. I'm super sad today like seriously !! :'(

HORRIBLE is my mood today.

It all started when ... the name tag is being tore apart by Elaine ... during the way from hall to class. She pull pull pull my bag, i didn't know she was clinging on the name tag, so i ran to break free, and the whole name tag tore! -.- The tag says '15! Lynette.' It was DIY by me myself, all my efforts, my 100% heart goes into his work. I remember during our 4th month... i wanted somthing for us that we could hang at our bag or something. I wanted to buy a pooh and a piglet keychain, but i've searched the Minitoons all over but to no avail Hence i got this idea of creating this name tag, to be created and done all by myself. I thought for a long time of where to get the materials to do the name tag. In the end i asked around and bought the materials from spotlight. Pieces and pieces, i fixed those sheets of materials together, into something not as hard as plastic but not as fragile as paper. I went to buy the strap to hang from the minitoons keychain. It was ready, way before 15th of december reached, as i started brainstorming long long ago.
Just on the fateful day, we broke up a few days after 15th. You couldn't meet up on our 4th monthsary, and afterwhich we broke up. I did not have a chance to give the name tag which says '15! Darren.'

This was one of the things i regretted alot. I wanted to give you, but seriously, LYNETTE DOESN'T HAVE THE COURAGE TO. Though i think this gift is suppose to belong to you. Today whn the tag broke, sadnesssuppess over my anger on Elaine. Its the feeling. My gift, that i didn't have a chance to give, something uncompleted. When the tag broke, it suddenly brings a strong flow of emotions. It hs the feeling as if this was what happened to our relationship too.
Somehow, it all seemed that i'm not sure of what i want now. I can't force you to come back to me if you don't want to, and you would be very unwillingly, there would be no happiness. I can't do anything now, except to wai for a time when you are ready to give me an answer. But no matter whatever it is, happiness or sadness, pain or pleasure ... It's the answer i'm waiting for.

Super moody during the first 4 periods before recess. Its like i so wanna cry but i can't!! Finally recess, WAAA. cry like SHIT! ROAR! ROAR Is the only word to describe how i feel. I kept crying and crying and crying. Thanks to my girlfriends, who gave me hugs and stayed beside me. ShiQi, Cheryl, and that WenLe who sacrifies her visit to the toilet to pei me in class cause she want go *POOPOO!* xD HMM! It's really cry until damn jialat, not few tears then end. Its like breathing so hard! :X Then they still want go canteen eat. With my watery eyes and reindeer nose, everyone was staring at me like eh, lynette you cry ah! Then i said : "No, my eyes kena poke by shiqi! " xD It's super hard to eat cause that feeling kept coming back and going and coming and going, then like will choke anything. And tears still rolling, yet i could still smile, HOHO, i think i'm AWESOME! :D

Spent the rest of my afternoon with chinese dancers. At night there was the briefing for cambodia trip. Journey home with Calvin & Adib. They're damn humorous please, they ended my day with a smile! :D OKAY, byebye. Time to doooo lots lots of things! :)